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The "what ifs" kept me up last night. Grrrrr!!!
I thought I'd conquered that one, but no. Life goes to a new place and the door to what if land creaks open again. After trying not to toss and turn for a couple hours, I migrated to the couch...
...With short detours to do a load of laundry and take the dog out. She, apparently, defines morning as whenever I get out of bed! Interestingly, I could hear the trucks on the highway about a mile away. I don't hear them during the day. The noises of an awake neighborhood drown them out.
So, back to those thoughts. During the day, the "what ifs" don't bother me too much. My mind is filled with chores, work, kids, and life. There's no room for the "what ifs." Why do they sneak in during the night when I should be sleeping? It's like the quiet in my home allows the noise of my mind to be heard, just like those trucks on the highway.
But... I know that the "what ifs" aren't healthy. Why couldn't I quiet them last night?
Here's where the truth hits me square between the eyes. I don't enjoy getting slugged by the truth. The "what ifs" creep in when I take my eyes off God. And that's exactly what I've done. Again.
Will I ever learn?
"Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable -- if anything is excellent or praiseworthy -- think about such things." (Phil 4:8) God doesn't want me to worry -- which is exactly what the "what ifs" are. It's like I posted earlier this week in It's No Secret!, I need to remember what God has already done and trust Him with the future.
Sleepless nights... worry... the only thing good that comes from that is some clean laundry!
Praising God... trusting Him... that leads to peaceful slumber! I have to spend some serious time with Him today if I want a good night's rest tonight.
The same is true for tomorrow too. :)
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Ooh those yucky old "what if's" can sneak right up on us...especially at night when we take our "Armor" off and put our nightgowns on :(
I hope you have a restful day.
Blessings
Shari
Thank you, Shari.
Moving slow today, but guarding my heart and tongue. It's not my kids' fault and I'm trusting God to keep me from acting out. :)
I was reading a devotional the other day and the author and his wife were both missionaries. They both had trouble sleeping and were consistently under spiritual attack in their dreams. He was explaining how important it is to start and end our day in the Word and in prayer, because at night is frequently when the enemy strikes. We let our guard down most at night.
When I stopped and thought about it, the worst times of doubt, insecurity, and fear that I've had have all been at night! He really inspired me to take my night quiet times much more seriously and I've definitely noticed a big difference!
Sorry you had such a hard night! Those "what ifs" can sure bring you down fast!
Becky,
I know to start and end the day with God. Today, I'm conflicted -- beat myself up (and heap more trouble on myself) or move ahead and offer myself some forgiveness for a lapse in Godly living. Obviously, I prefer the latter, but the fatigue sure makes that hard.
That slippery slope. One step off God's path -- just by calling it an early night and skipping my time with him -- can lead to more harm than good.
So far today, I'm focused on Him AND continuing to guard my tongue and attitude with prayer :)
Yes, I've been up many a night and knocked out a lot of laundry. Glad to hear I am not alone.
I've had my share of sleepless nights so I totally understand. I hope you are able to set the "what ifs" aside tonight and get a good night's sleep.
Thanks, Cascia.
Slept like a baby last night!!! Well... as babies seem to go, I slept better. :)
Priorities readjusted.
My Pastor calls them "thought soldiers" that come to rob us of our peace....! The many nights I found without sleep due to these creatures of torment...Not anymore...when they come charging in I just shut the gate and said NOPE not for you ....and the Peace of God just takes over as I remind myself to think upon HIM and all HIS Beauty
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