Thanks for Listening!

Yesterday and today have been so much better. I realize, and really have long known, that much of what I go through in relationships isn't about the other person. So often, it's about what God wants to do in me!

Selfishly, I want things to run smoothly all the time. I want to be super-mom! But, super-mom does not exist - anywhere. Only Super-God. He is the source of wisdom, strength, patience and perseverance. I continue to marvel at how He has given me three kids with distinct personalities, all of whom reveal my weakest spots. All of whom require that I lean into God, press close to Him, so I don't parent in the flesh - selfishly.

Because of my kids, I am learning to budget my time wisely - so the lazy one will not squander precious time. Oh, but I want so badly to be lazy. I am learning to look at the world from a different point of view - because it's not as black and white as I want to think! And I am learning to hold my tongue - the hardest of all - as I guide one to watch their words.

Because God has provided me with these three, I am becoming (slowly, perhaps) a better me. So thankful that He trusts me to figure it out. So thankful that He has provided me with little mirrors of me (even if I don't want to see it). AND truly thankful that He forgives me, gives me more chances, and listens lovingly when I whine.